The New Guy (a.k.a. My New Insecurity)

So… those 8 days came and went. It all went pretty well. Me and my new guy (he needs a nickname now… I’m calling him TO) got along surprisingly well. That’s huge for me because I’m really good at fighting with people, even BF-to-be types.

Until we get the long-distance thing worked out, he’s just my “BF-to-be”. Yet, somehow, I’m already getting jealous for this guy.

I noticed that when we walked around in a mall, girls would check him out. This (not so surprisingly, perhaps) is new to me. This makes me a protective non-GF, which is something I’m not proud of. TO also has a lot of pretty female friends. He acts totally proper with them, but they do take away from my precious TO time. This makes PinkBunny NOT happy. PinkBunny is greedy like that. And also extremely insecure. I secretly suspect that they're all after him.

PinkBunny also needs to stop talking in 3^rd person. This is not a good sign.

posted by PinkBunny @ 9:07 PM 12 bunnies talk back

There's a guy

There’s this guy. There might be something. He’s coming to visit me for 8 days.

I really don’t know what I could possibly do to entertain him for 8 days. I’m not that interesting. And, at the beginning of something, it’s a huge risk to commit to 8 consecutive days without knowing if I’m interesting enough. Or if he’s interesting enough.

We’ve already gone through small disagreements just trying to organize this thing. (Maybe that's a warning?) As the host, I know I’m supposed to know where to bring him and what to eat, etc. But, Vancouver’s actually pretty boring! Other than the nice views, which will lose their impact on day 3, there’s really nothing in Vancouver. Plus, on top of all that, he’s been to Vancouver. So, really, I’m screwed!

On top of trying to figure out if this guy’s good for me and vice versa, I have now stressed myself out so much that I’m starting to get sick. That’s just peachy! So now I’m going to be stressing over being entertaining while battling the flu!

I don’t think I’m supposed to be this stressed out before a relationship. I don’t think I’ve been this nervous about a friend visiting. I'm freaking out.

I just really don’t want to disappoint people. I can’t deal with disapproval.

Now I’m too stressed out to figure out if I like the guy, which should’ve been an easy thing to do.

And if I decide that I like this guy a lot, then what? He doesn’t even live in the same city! I’ve done long-distance and I know that I personally can’t handle it. I end up hating people for not being here.

Wow I haven’t blogged in a long time. So much to vent. I haven’t even gotten to the little boy who won’t stop calling me…

posted by PinkBunny @ 10:56 PM 14 bunnies talk back

How to be Happy

Once in a while, a title on the Google sidebar catches my eye. This time, it’s “How to be happy.” Apparently, there’s a video you can watch to learn to become happy. How interesting.

My blog tends to be linked to depression these days. That fact itself is quite depressing. That’s it! I’m going to avoid using the word ‘depression’ for the next month.

… and I just used it 3 more times in this blog. Oooh those ads are never going to leave me alone.

There used to be a time when all they said were ‘relationships’ and ‘breakups’. So maybe this is an improv- oh who am I kidding?

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I’m going to a dance class tomorrow! It’s called “Hip hop with heels.” It sounds quite interesting. I followed ‘So You Think You Can Dance’ faithfully this summer, so I’m very excited to try to look like I can hip hop in heels. We’ll see.

posted by PinkBunny @ 3:11 AM 0 bunnies talk back